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Kim - scottnkimp@bigpond.com
Posted 2010-02-28
Why don't we start camping? asked my husband and partner of 16 yrs. Trying to get my focus off pain. Great, hours of driving then sitting around a camp fire then sleeping in a swag. Can't hardly sit, can't hardly drive, haven't slept well in 10 years.
Severe tailbone pain for 10 years has wrecked my life, all but destroyed my marriage. Cost me a fortune in medical probes to no avail and tonight I am running away to a hotel room to cry the night away once I have put my 2 year old to sleep so my husband cant see me crumble.
Can't cope any more. How can I get back the bubbly girl who used to run, laugh and work so very hard at life. I have read other sufferers stories but just cant believe we have all been given such a horrible hand in life. Can't bear what this has done to my wonderful husband. He looks at me so coldly now. My precious baby boy keeps saying - mummy cry - mummy hurt. Its more than I can take.
Update, 2010-03-21
Had to give up acupuncture. To much stirred up pain. Have finally seen specialist. Was on a 14-month waiting list but my GP re assessed me to severe (about time). And I was in in one week. MRI has been scheduled soon. Now getting referred pain in left hip and crack very loudly when I do get up from sitting. People can hear it so now even strangers know my secret. Was still walking heaps so I could spend some fun time with my son but now hip has limited this.
Thank you to all those who emailed me, it was like a big hug. I live in Australia the land of opportunity except when it comes to specialists doctors. Fingers crossed.